not a nice girl

Monday, June 23, 2003:

this started playing in the car the other day...

it was on one of jasmine's unlabeled cd's.

Artist: Superchic[k]
Album: Karaoke Superstar
Song: Get Up

i'm not afraid to fall
it means i climbed up high
to fall is not to fail
you fail when you don't try
i'm not afraid to fall
i might just learn to fly
and i will spread these wings of mine

if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
we get up anyway
if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
and i might fall back down again
and we'll just jump and see
even if its the 20th time
we'll just jump and see if we can fly

i'm not afraid to fall
and here i told you so
don't want to rock the boat
but i just had to know
just a greener side
or can i touch the sky
but either way i will try

if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
we get up anyway
if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
and i might fall back down again
and we'll just jump and see
even if its the 30th time
we'll just jump and see if we can fly

i'm not afraid to fall
i've fallen many times
they laughed when i fell down
but i have dared to climb
i'm not afraid to fall
i know i'll fall again
but i can win this in the end

if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
we get up anyway
if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
and i might fall back down again
and we'll just jump and see
even if its the 40th time
we'll just jump and see if we can fly

if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
we get up anyway
if i get up i might fall back down again
so lets get up c'mon
if i get up i might fall back down again
and i might fall back down again

thought it was a neat song.
Jayme // 12:43 AMComments

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not a bad summer so far...

other than cleaning up after the puppy and such. i'm the replacement fashion coordinator for jillian (as if *i* know anything about the subject), a position i'm not too keen on. i've also been designated her chauffeur to and from summer school, but only then, says mom. got to spend time with friends the past two days, and that's been *very* entertaining. for example...

wednesday -- went to lynn's for pizza and watched a guy thing and messed with some guy's head online. well, not really. but he deserved it. he got pissed at me though, and i don't care.

friday -- had brunch at IHOP with a large group of people, got kidnapped voluntarily to san diego, had fun talking and catching up and watching strange anime, met lynn's godfather, hung out with friends again, looked and old and new pictures, my boyfriend caught me in bed with one of his best friends (i swear that was his fault, not mine.) more hilarity ensued.

saturday -- went to a party, saw jenn, left party with jenn, kidnapped mark, went to arnold's party. gave him a balloon hat. watched movies, ate bbq, put cake on arnold. pretended to give him our new puppy as a birthday present. (he would have taken it too!) karaoke'd. lots. kept track of all the beers ron and kirk had.

sunday -- woke up at 6. read hp#5 straight til 10, showered and went to kristina's graduation party and ate/played cranium til 530. went home. napped. picked up hp#5 again at around 10, finished at 11.

and so on. tomorrow (monday) is mini road trip with the girls. of course it doesn't start til *after* i bring jillian home from school.

off to look for something in particular, posting this in the meantime.

leave comments por favor!
Jayme // 12:25 AMComments

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Thursday, June 19, 2003:

by the way...

if you haven't yet, go check out chris'/keiichi's page. it's got a pretty new intro.
Jayme // 4:34 AMComments

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why am i still awake??

darn amazon.

oh, turns out that my last post wasn't eaten, it just wasn't published. yay for not taking the test again. but i might just for fun.

i had lots of things to say earlier, but i think i'll pretend to go to sleep soon so that my parents don't look at me funny.

g'night all.
Jayme // 4:27 AMComments

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Saturday, June 07, 2003:

Dragon's Nen Test (Hunter x Hunter)!

My results:

Your nen type is Materialization! You are a sensitive person and have tendency to live inside your own head. You use your nen ability to make the things you imagine into tangible objects. Judgement chains, magical swords, demonic vaccum cleaners-- you name it! Your typical weapon tends to be whatever item you specialize in summoning.



Hunter � Hunter: 'What Nen Type are You?' Quiz

Your nen type is Manipulation! You are a somewhat controlling person that is very stubborn and has a liking for lecturing others. You know your stuff. You use your nen ability to control objects or people. You can make objects fly or person kill! Your typical weapon tends to be whatever is at hand which sometimes could be other people's weapons.



Hunter � Hunter: 'What Nen Type are You?' Quiz

Apparently everyone gets the first result. and i've got both sides of the spectrum. iiiiiiiiiinteresting.

leave comments.
Jayme // 9:54 PMComments

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Thursday, June 05, 2003:

back by popular demand...

hehe, just kidding. i know it's been a long while, but i've been very stressed and busy. it's all coming to a head now though. not doing too much thinking about things right now so there isn't too much to blog about (unless you want to here about my day, every day).

in the instructional computing lab. listening to presentations.

okay, so i have been thinking... but not about things i can articulate at the moment (trying to type as quietly as possible). i tend to feel the need to censor myself, even at the cost of my feelings, to spare others'. but i'm beginning to wonder why. i mean, i started this blog to uncensor myself, or at least begin to... but i don't want to step on anyone's feelings or egos (even if it does bother me when someone always tries to always be right, though they said something wrong, then tries to twist around his or her words to make it sound like they were right the whole time! grr!! <-- annoyance of the morning). on the other hand, most of my adoring fans (in reality, they're known as readers of this blog (C: ) know me personally and know the other people in my life. so omitting names isn't always going to protect the privacy (or my readers' opinons) of said people. unfortunately, naming people outright makes it seem like a direct attack on them or their character. so i'm undecided... (what else is new?) what do you guys think? (cue the commenting!)

[trivia from one presentation]
[ha! the american lion is bigger/was bigger than the african lion]
[the saber-toothed cat is california's state fossil]

[different presentation:]
[ooh, time travel!]
[ugh, physics]
[eew, reference frames!]
[wow this guy is enthusiastic]
[light clocks!]
[hmm, time dilation -- does that mean that we have to keep in constant motion to slow aging?]
[this is pretty interesting]
[ew quantum mechanics]
[www.futurehorizons.net]
[www.chronos. ?]

i bet you guys are entertained. :oD

so yeah, if you want to know about what's bugging me, just ask. in all likelihood i will tell you, unless you are a Person-That-Shouldn't-Be-Named. dc: but you prolly won't know that you are because i'll just subtly not mention that part concerning you that bothers me. not to intentionally be secretive, but i'm not about to tell you about every single thing that bothers me about you because you'll be hurt and it will just make things awkward between us. and i don't like awkwardness. unfortunately it makes me bottle things up inside.

it's weird. i'm all non-confrontational because i don't want to hurt feelings, but if i'm the one that's bothering someone, i'd like to be told. i'm working on making my feelings not so easy to trample on. so now what? well, if you were a PTSBN (see above paragraph), would *you* want to hear a list of your faults that i've slowly (or rapidly) been compiling for an undetermined amount of time? all at once? or once in a while, when i get irritated at you? [cue for more comments! i know you're reading this.]

class is almost over... i'm stopping now so that you can leave comments. [now, right now. and again once you've thought about it more.]

p.s. hey dragon, i miss your blog. come back soon.
Jayme // 1:47 PMComments

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